October 7th, 2018

Time: 08:57

My last letter, before the Divine Enactments transmitted from Me to the Readers…

I cannot move my head flexible, move my mouth to talk, eat; something cuts me from inside my brain if I force my head to move, I cannot walk fast, information installs hardly in my brain: “now I walk; now I wash my teeth…”; I cannot think fast; I cannot assimilate many information in a short time without feeling neurological blockage, disorder, dizziness, I cannot understand the logic of words, although I can hear them… If my body (temporary) seasonal comes back to physical-psychic energy and I use it accordingly, I pay with tiredness so as I have to come back to bed, lying down, in order to accumulate the energy required for progressing all right with the every day activities…

It feels like somebody beat me all night long, I have pains in all my body… I had nightmares all night long…

I’m mute today… It came back the muteness on the long term, the one that I get, usually, after tense nightmares… And because they do not stop since 4.09.2015… I have them day and night, as I turn sleeping… invasion of nightmares. Once, I stood on my feet 24 hours because I felt my brain disturbed at maximum after them, leaning against the walls to go to the WC (toilet), unable to recognize the object in front of me, got so dizzy that all around me was inclined, although when going to bed I had all the vitamins… had no dizziness. I often had to oil my lips with Swedish bitter (medicinal) for them to come off, teeth were clinched, I cannot open my mouth… Only after a few minutes my lips will come off, teeth, and all this right after I woke up from the nightmares…

Thanks to the lady pharmacist from Plafar (I do not know her, I wrote tickets; my mother knows her…), the one that believed me that “I cannot because of the nightmares, maybe there’s a herbal treatment…” and that my muteness problem is real, not just a psychological issue, of determination, vitamins, faith… my everyday voice has return, but belated (very late) because my body is drained to maximum of psycho-emotional energy, has constant cerebral tiredness, because of the sleep destruction, and when I’m awake I get hit of the destructive reality… This way, the moments of muteness alternated with the ones when talking… I felt everyday how I lose verbal energy, but the family circumstances, social circumstances, got me in the situation of talking anytime, forcing at maximum my brain and my vocal cords…

Today, being, in my brain and throat, like when the letter “a” didn’t come out no matter now hard I tried, I DECIDED:

AS LONG I WILL HAVE NIGHTMARES, SHOCK, TROUBLES… I WILL KEEP MY PSYCHO-EMOTIONAL-PHYSIC ENERGY ONLY FOR WRITING NOTES, BECAUSE i DO NOT NOW SIGN-LANGUAGE, NOR MY FAMILY… WHETHER MY VOICE WILL RETURN, IN PHASES, I WON’T USE IT, BECAUSE IT IS CLEAR TO ME: I USED IT WHEN I HAD IT AND I LOST IT, THEREFORE IT WILL TAKE TIME FOR VOCAL STABILITY… GOOD THING THERE ARE TREATMENTS…

When I was 2 years old (there was winter…) and I heard that adults lied to me, I clenched my fists and wanted to go, confront them, angry “why they lied to me?” I often saw a transparent being that kept on saying: “Do not tell anyone that you can see me, not even to your mommy, ok? ‘Cause it’s not good.”; that time, it stopped me, explaining so I that understood I will fall and get to a place I do not like (it showed me, far away, in a city, a room filled with beds, that had bars on the sides, and in those beds slept, alone, children, during the day, night, once in a while people that the children knew came to see them, often people of “one color” came in – I did not knew all the colors then yet… and then the transparent being asked me: “Where do you want to live: there or here, with grandma’, Gina, Marcica, where they laugh, do housework, talk to you?”) and then I gave up to talk to adults to confront them in so many occasions… When I said to the “transparent”: “Just see when I’ll grow up and confront them!” it said: “There’s no point…” and explain so I understood that: “They know theirs’ and do not change their wrong opinion, I’d better mind my own good…”.

I noticed how I lived such moments of disturbance and fainting (with or without the last), in adulthood, when somebody does me wrong, although I’M SURE I’M WRIGHT. I’ve decided: I will let the “smart ones” in front of me to hit the facts, I will answer in words or writings, but I will not try anymore “lots of words within a short time…”, I noticed that I’m not able anymore to explain everything in detail… My brain needs treatments, rest and time… Once, I repeat anything anytime to anybody… people waited for me in their homes for: “The pleasure of hearing you…”.

I will not come out to my door to talk to reporters because I cannot stand the fact: “We have the first pictures”, and the reporters from “the other site of the world” not knowing if the report from Romania is a fake or not. By the fact that people have free Internet access to supernatural information, staying the idea: “GOOD PEOPLE, LIVE WELL CONSTANTLY!”. I feel WORLDWIDE EQUALITY.

Why I’m not opening now “the conversations page?” I already feel BAD BECAUSE I SENT INFORMATION WITHOUT PROOFS AND I DO NOT ACCEPT “CELEBRATING CHAMPAGNE BEFORE THE TRIUMPH…” After I will receive the Divine Peace: “Everywhere in the world CAME THE PROMISED GOOD”, as a result of which people will know that I DID NOT MOCKED THEM THROUGH FINE WORDS, I will open the site for conversations… I leave everything into my sisters’ account…

I would have mind my own business the way that I could. If, the Father from Heaven wanted “WORDS, THEN FACTS”, there’s nothing I can do… I preferred “FACTS AND IF NO OTHER WAY, I WOULD HAVE TALKED…” My head hurts more, my palm, although I wrote slowly…

… ANGELICA..