What a shattering feeling: I keep moving forward in this Supernatural Situation, without knowing HOW it will end, asking myself: “Do I once again follow LUCIFER without being aware of it: ______”. I keep on waiting: ______ in vain. You’d say that I may as well die anytime from cerebral tiredness, for the bones… are well rested in bed, day, night, BUT, for the Heavenly Peace emanated from the Divine Visits of the past (October 20th, 1992 – May 20th, 1996) and the Divine Advises towards me regarding my health, that I did not understood but followed, afterwards getting the medical confirmation and evolving for the best ALWAYS. I even wondered: “I thought that the Ones from Heaven talk only about praying, why do they insist: ‘Do or don’t do this, this is good or this is not…'”, so many Divine Words that proved to be real, me not being universally informed, I’ll move forward in EVERYTHING: ______. I’ve told Them: “I will always be a human open door, you may enter at anytime, JUST say and I will act, although I don’t know WHAT I WILL FIND OUT and I fear: ‘Is it Lucifer or God in front of me in this moment?’. Once… I USED TO KNOW”.
I’ve told God today: “I will have to say in writing to my sisters what they have to do in The Day of The Divine Enactment. If I won’t succeed in taking a bath, I have two choices: I supervise, rest within that day and go to bed, leaving the bath for the next day or I do them both within the same day, risking to pass out due to neurological tiredness… I do not now what comes for me after the posting of these writings, You won’t tell me… I’m used for You to promise me and harvest: only bad. I eat, drink treatments daily, but I haven’t found the substitute of the peaceful sleep… During day I’m drank without taking alcohol. Some work – in bed on and on, although I’m not dizzy. For they say: ‘Look, the crazy one, doesn’t bath although she walks!’ Do you know, I can’t get off of bed if I don’t lay a bit more after focusing at the TV? When standing, I have to pay attention to the symptoms of falling out due to tiredness. I’ve often fallen… What would terrify the devils and sorcerers so they leave my sleep alone? I WANT TO BE ACTIVE CONSTANT.
– And still… I’ve failed to keep the nervous system… constantly tired… because of the nightmares from devils and sorcerers, standing… Today I’ve made a sedative tea as strong as Rudotel capsules recommended in year 2001 for the diagnoses read on the electroencephalogram (EKG – if I accurately remember the abbreviation of this analysis) by Doctor Bordeianu. I’ve wrote medical names only on God’s Request. I hope you won’t invade their life because of me. As from me, the doctors may explain or not, depending on what they decide, my mental state. Although I risk nightmares also during day, my brain cannot carry on the tension and tiredness. Happily, I no longer have nightmares due to disease and tiredness.
Jesus told me today: “Because you’ve meditated to your own death, that of Parish Priest Toma and that of your family, You’ve believed US when we asked you: ‘Stop waiting for anything, same as a dead body’, you’ve come to wait for what you’ve wrote afterwards and you’ll receive the help of Parish Priest Toma, as I SAID TO YOU.”
From Heaven for Earth 